I'm a burden to people everywhere i go.

It's time to shift again. Mini luggage and other essential stuff. It's tiring knowing i have to take so many stuff with me when the destination is just a few km away from the previous one.

It's true. I shall start to be less concerned with others in order to feel happy.
It was my biggest problem.

Dairy products. Yummy. Especially chocolate filled with almonds/peanuts/hazelnuts.
YUM YUM.
People should start giving new year presents. I need plenty of XXL bar of chocolate. It'll be satisfying.
:D

There were so many dogs. Some were ugly. Some were so cute. The owner said chow chow is a stupid dog. After teaching it to pee properly for ten times, the proper way to pee is still unclear. But, it was really cute. I wanted to steal it away so much. Those puppy eyes. Aww. We got a shiba inu anyway. Another beautiful and cute dog. Also. A very loyal dog. An expensive one too. That 4 month old bitch is 3350SGD.

Kanasai.

I rant too much.

&
No one can shut me up.

I sometimes wish that i dont have any friends. With that, i can focus more on my family and treat them the way i should. I dislike having the feeling that one is more important than i am. I dislike knowing that i need them so much and not the opposite. The feeling of removing friends is here again. I dont like feeling sad just because i read certain statuses.

SUCKY.

Uh. I've been in the room the whole day. Watching dramas. Waiting hard for the english subbed videos. Not happening. Eeks.

I wanna learn how to speak korean. I cant stand myself always self-talking with some language i dont understand. Oh goodness. Im nutily-nuts.

Do you know how much i hate you? I hate you more because she said she missed you.
I feel gay :O

Everything happened in a blink of an eye.

Christmas is over.
Hmm,
Happy Boxing Day!
:D

It's somehow freaky even though it shouldn't be. They said there is nothing i should be afraid of but im afraid im spending too much without realising. Im afraid i didnt do things i was supposed to do. Im just afraid all because im not in a place called home. Everything doesnt seem to be mine.

She said she'll pay for everything i need and the ones given, will be saved for my future. That's even scarier now.

I owe you too much.

I used to borrow people's money when i was young. All the time. I think taking is the right word since i dont return their money. After i was 'caught', i stopped taking people's stuff without returning. And now, this feels wrong. In a way.

I still cant imagine if things don't turn out the way it should be. What should i do? More money will be wasted. All money used, to the rubbish bin.

I'm sorry.

9th is finally here.

Everyone was so happy. Some screamed in happiness. One, high-pitch-screamed next to my ear. I didnt feel as happy when trials was over after coming out of the hall. This, was just like another exam. Maybe because i have another test the week after next week. I dont want i dont want i dont want :(

Now, i can watch my dramas without the need to count the hours left to sleep. Because, i have a whole day to do so ;D

I think i just forgot about the test -.-

Dont talk to me.
Yeah.
Please dont.

Chestnut brown. But it isnt that obvious under white light. It's better under dim light.

From the back.

I saw girls playing with their hair while thinking. I also saw them re-tying their hair even if it was not messy. Again and again. Everything could be seen from the back of the hall. How interesting.

What's her job seriously? She seemed to just sit there. Like literally, there! She was supposed to alert teachers if she sees girls raising their hands. I felt like shouting to help ones who raised there hand for like, more than a minute. Goodness! She couldn't even walk out to look at the time to tell us time is up. Like hello, it's just a few metres away -.- Other teachers had to stand in front of the clock to give her signals. Booo.

Seeing people sitting in groups, i felt uninvited. Please ask, no?

Ah. I cant be happy. Knowing that i have another test on the 21st and 22nd. This is so not cool. I have to like, revise on my worst subject. What the hell is that. Yish! And the others will smile happily since they are done with their exams. Today.

I thought we could be best friends there. But you seemed to be best friends with every girl. Oh boy.

Their situation now reminds me of my past. The exact same situation. I can feel her pain. I can feel how regret she feels. I can feel how much she wants him back. Too late.

Dare me.

Can i remove people i sincerely dont wanna hear about anymore? I dont want jealousy or envy to pop out of my mind. I hate that. Even if we still are good friends, can i? Let's act as though we've never met or speak to each other before. Please. I doubt we will even keep in touch. Maybe just greetings. I dont want. I dont wanna see everyone still talking to everyone and im talking to no one. I dont wanna see how people say they miss each other and me just reading those messages. It feels like crap.

And yes, i am never a nice person.

I dont wanna be alone for the next three days. I dont wanna be like her. I dont wanna feel alone. I dont wanna sit there not knowing what to do even if i know what i should do. I dont wanna sit out of that circle. I dont wanna our backs to meet. I doubt it'll be fun there. If i dont mix, can i not listen to any stories? It'll suck. I really just wanna have fun. I wasnt suppose to be there anyway right? So i brought another to make me feel better.

Sucha bitch.
*winks*

Everytime i think about it, i realised all i remember was the aftermath.

Ohsomany rants to make.

Additional Mathematics.

Physics.

Chemistry.
Biology.
& Accounts.

Oh what the fuck.

The bad days are soon to start. Like really really bad ones. I know nothing about sciences. Oh why am i not determined in everything i do even if it means a lot to me. Boo myself.

You came home and you acted like the king when she was around. Now, something happened to your neck, your friends are gonna be you slaves. You are such a bastard. I am sure you know that deep down in your heart. Pfft. You sneezed without covering your mouth while using my laptop. You installed bullshits without even asking me permission. Bitch. Can i have a new laptop? URGH. Or or is there any laptop cleaning services? Like, cleaning thoroughly?

Im happy that i wasnt there on the 19th. I would be alone, im sure.

I dont want you here. I dont want you and your friends here. I really, sincerely, tremendously hate noises like such.

Fuck.